ARTIST STATEMENT My sister suffered with Bipolar Disorder. One could only feel helpless watching as the quality of her life moved from vital and functioning to withered and incapable. She was engaged in Pill Burden, also called Polypharmacy defined as "the use of a number of different drugs, possibly prescribed by different doctors and filled in different pharmacies, by a patient who may have one or several health problems", according to Dorland's Medical Dictionary. At the age of 49, exhausted from paralyzing depression, she took her own life with a cocktail of pharmaceutical medications. This collection of pills belonged to her. My initial interest in this project began with the desire to make a personal portrait with the pills, to find some meaning in her pain and suffering, and ultimately her suicide, and lastly to understand the dizzying or pacifying wash in the combinations of the drugs themselves. In my creative pursuit, the questions became aimed, not at my personal involvement but at the culpability of the pharmaceutical companies. At no other time in history have we been so inundated with such accessibility and variety of drugs, coupled with constant and aggressive advertising promising to fix everything from shaky leg to erectile dysfunction. A more troubling issue is the physicians' grasp of the relationship between mental illness and medication. With inspiration from home furnishing catalogues, I composed designs that were obvious patterns. Inspirations came from movies, graphic design, and sample books. With a keen eye toward color, I constructed a world, which, upon first glance, could be any bedroom. But as the viewer moves closer, they become aware that each shape consists of a grouping of pills. The patterns were chosen for shape and color and in no way do they recreate a specific medicinal regiment.